Lost & Shattered

 

Nobody knew hard it is to be
So empty, so lost, feeling astray like me
Don’t blame me for becoming what I am
Because I’ve been trying to hold on like a dam

Trust?! Pardon me, I don’t understand?!
Things are in a mess, getting out of my hand
Betrayal, is so easy now, that’s what I get
It happens wherever I go, with everyone I’ve met

Honesty?! Wow! This word seems blur
Just fading away, got lost like a little girl
Lies, all seem so easy to be told
And those promises are that were meant to be hold

Over-reacting, I often was accused of
Your words are mean, just too tough
Be in mu shoe, and then come and judge me
You’ll be shocked at what you’ll see

I hold my tears so hard not to weep
Because I often cry myself to sleep
I feel weak, pathetic ripped off
You say it’s so silly, all this stuff

Alone?! I try to convince myself it’s wrong
But this feeling keeps ringing in my head like a song
Happy! I wish I feel it once in my life time
But sadness keeps cutting me like a knife

I’m strong, emotionless, heartless you claim
And myself is the one to blame
For showing that I really don’t care
When things push me so hard that I can’t bear

Don’t judge me; you don’t know what’s true
For all what’s happening I blame you
I am always proved wrong, what the hell
I will speak up for myself, get out of this shell

Yet I try and try but all in vain
Agony, pain and misery I just gain
And once I think things got better
Just a few minutes and I get shattered

So?! That’s life, I’ll have to do the time
I’ll keep my voice down, like a mime
I’ll fade away in the shadows at last
And become a memory, just something from the past