Drowning

 

I'm drowning down the sea 
ocean waves hitting me 
trying to pull myself up 
but I can no more I give up 
like falling into a black hole 
acting in a play with no role 
someone takes my hands and grab 
all behind my back they stab 
what's wrong with everyone I don't know 
evil, envy and shit they show 
friends they say what a joke 
in the end they eat your flesh like a hawk 
friendship isn't love u, babe, and so on 
all this crap has been gone 
LOVE...that is another story I say 
it's just a damn game they play 
I lose the game every time I try 
so I stopped my dignity I want to buy 
asphyxiated, asphyxiated I can’t breathe 
or on my skin feel the warm breeze 
I feel life is just an illusion 
am living in a dilemma, full of confusion 
they tell u " don't give a shit" 
I tried to do this a little but 
but am the kind who hated to lie 
to myself, how do they do it oh my!! 
words can’t describe how I feel 
my wounds can no longer heal 
scratching and rubbing them again 
once in a while what a pain??!! 
trying to hold on to someone 
but all the good ones are gone 
they change into something bad 
what should I do am so mad!! 
farewell, my so long friends 
u have died you've reached the end 
may your souls rest in peace 
since then my heart is broken into pieces 
I miss you; you can’t believe how much 
but u abandoned me left ma heart to crush 
but, I still find excuses for you 
am so stupid I know it's so true 
sadness when will it end? 
and may my heart after all mends 
and ma eyes are swollen all red 
my bursting tears wetting my bed 
dreams, dreams make them stop 
I can take no more my heart will drop 
your image lie in my mind 
I feel your soul from behind 
I have sad a lot I have tried a lot but in vain 
o am trapped in this, in this pain 
pull me out of it help me 
am drowning drowning cant u see??!! 
you're now so far away from me 
and u and me together can't be 
I can’t believe the story has finished 
and all the good memories has vanished 
but what to do am used to this 
it's just you I really miss 
yet I have to move on life goes on 
and I must realize the fairy-tale is done 
now it comes to people everywhere 
at me wherever I go they stare 
don't want to leave me alone what the hell? 
I feel I want hide myself in a shell... 
stop this all this laughter and mocking 
it really bugs me my trace you're stocking 
what do you want more am destructed 
my soul ,my mind, my everything abducted 
the "nerd" that is what is said 
I think it will relieve u to find me dead 
enough you're like voices in my head 
never stop even in my sleep in my bed 
"jealousy" just blind folded their eyes 
and am sick and tired of their lies 
leave me on my own I beg you 
what more to say I condemn you 
your eyes in every place checking me 
hatred and envy in them I see 
in the dark like owls so frightening 
I am searching for a place for hiding 
oh GOD lord am praying to you 
to protect me from what they do 
and to keep me safe in your mercy 
cause I really am losing my lunacy 
so, no more words come to my mind 
I feel am being betrayed from behind 
so am drowning down deep the sea 
waiting for someone to save me.....!!