Blur

 

Blur....everything become just blur...what's right?! what's wrong?! which way to choose?! Speak up? to Shut up? stand up for what you believe?! Or stay silent in the shadows? 
Life?! Friends? Family?! Everything is in a mess! love?! hate?! betrayal? loyalty? honesty? lies?
Opposites are just screwing my mind....
I look around me, and what I see?! I don't know. I can no longer understand! mysteries everywhere!!
Asphyxiated, feeling down, depressed, and messed up.... why all that?! what's wrong with me?! I don't know.... I got no clue?!
I cry myself to sleep, every single night! but for what? for someone?! for something?! NO!!
for "myself"...I look at myself in the mirror...how I turned to be, what path I chose to go, how my life became!
And I weep...cause it's awful, the right seems wrong, the wrong seems right.
letting go seems a mistake, then moving on seems the only way.
troubles everywhere, shit happens constantly. fears come reality; dreams fade away...smile just so fake.... tears are my stake....
no one understands, no one is there...looking back at every incident that took place...
how could I be so stupid?! how could I trust those people?! I should have been more easy-going...those words were so mean...I should have scolded them immediately; I made a mistake...
All seems in chaos...everything seems BLUR...…